Lost But Looking

( Where I've Been and Will Be )

Uf- To those I owe tags or have threads planned with, I'm sorry. I'm really trying not to fail here but it's a losing battle.


[x-posted to anassa_eneri]

Okay so it was bound to happen. It's a little sad it happened on the first week, but I'm taking it a day at a time >.>

Yesterday was my parents anniversary. I was doing really good until we took them out to dinner at Bob Evans. I haven't bothered to look at how many calories I wracked up yesterday. I gave up somewhere around my mom offering me some of her gravy for my biscuit. *headdesk*

Today I was doing REALLY WELL. My breakfast was only 189 calories (300 is the goal), Lunch was 300. Annnnd then Magnolia took me out to dinner and there was more failure happening. From what I can calculate dinner came to a whopping 772 calories. I figure I shouldn't feel too bad as some entrees alone are more calories than that. Over all today was 1331 calories out of 1200. Not a horrible failure, right?

A lot of RPing happened today which was nice! And a lot of hanging out with Mag. OH OH OH annnnd my hair is now black. I have been wanting to do it for awhile and I think I really like the results. (It always takes a few days for me to really decide.)

Kyle is in Jackson tonight, visiting his grandma. She's dying of stage 4 brain cancer and slipping fast. It was a day of fighting tears, mostly. She is the sweetest lady ever and the first to really welcome me into the family. It was hard knowing that I couldn't be there and that there is a distinct possibility that I will never see her alive again. She is going down hill quickly and none of us know just how long it will be. I'm having trouble sleeping without Kyle here and it's already 4:30.

Still reading? You're such a trooper. In good news- I just checked my school email account and I was awarded a scholarship for going back to school! It's only 1 semester but it will help SO MUCH. $1,000. I should be finding out within the next week about another scholarship as well.

I should probably try sleeping.

It is so rare that I have an exceedingly good day. I don't even know what made it a good day really. Maybe that my yoga instructor didn't make us do that weird little bedn thing in which you are supposed to attach your elbows to your knees and lift your feet off the ground. (Okay, I tried to find you a picture but I failed.) At any rate, it was ridiculous and while a lot of people could do it- I was not one of them. Not having to even attempt it did make me feel a little more confident in general :P

Costume design went well and apparently, I wasn't the only person who misunderstood the assignment but the only one who did understand it! That was a little confidence booster.

AND THE BEST PART OF ALL!? Today was my official start to my diet and I only went 5 calories over! stayed 13 calories low!!!!!! *dances*

( A breakdown of how I did it )

This hasn't been a great week. I've had problems with my financial aid like crazy and I've had the fear of locking myself into a major. Little did I realize I have only three semesters that I can afford at U of M and after that... I don't know what will happen. When I first found out that I was facing (brand new) degree completion in 3 semesters I bawled my eyes out, paralyzed with fear and the enormity of what was ahead. A few words from friends calmed me down and convinced me not to quit school but it didn't erase that fear.

For those of you who don't know, I've chosen Costume Design as my major. It is something that can combine my love of theatre with my background in art and design. I hope that I have finally found something to settle with because I don't think that I can afford to keep switching my majors. (In case anyone is curious, this is major switch number 2, unless you count my first declaration of major as a Freshman 7 years ago.)

Friday I had an interview for a Theatre Design scholarship. Cross your fingers for me! It could be up to $1,000 which would be extremely useful for me.

Also on Friday I had a physical. My Doctor put me on a diet. While I think it's a very good idea, I'm not exactly excited. He stressed counting calories and being diligent. Makes sense. It's not extremely practical but I know a lot of people do it. The goal? 5 pounds in 2 months. I'm hoping that posting about it here, and posting my progress, I'll have a little bit of luck keeping on track.

Feel free to stop reading :) ( Calorie counting failure. )

Okay, I'm following suit- with a small twist. Posted below is a prompt table of 100. I will be taking the first ten requests (if I get that many) for anything ya'll want. After that I am going to try and write these for original fiction. Occasionally, I will open it up for more requests if I get stuck. Over all I just want to get in the habit of writing again and disciplining myself to do something consistently. I am not promising quality here...

There is a possibility that I will take requests for the prompts to be used in the original fiction as I go but I'm not sure. I am making this up as I move along! >.>

( probably )

omgz I'm not dead.

That is the most important thing you will learn in this post. ( (which is to say that the rest of this is non-connected bs rambling about my life that realllllly doesn't pertain to anyone but me but it's my ij and therefore my soap box and I'll do with my slice of the internet however I'd like. So there. Or something.) )

Well dear flist, many of you have followed my time with my puppy dog Emmett since we put the down-payment on his litter. Today I come with more news. Today Emmett is a little lighter and a little less of a man... er... dog. At 7:30 this morning we drove the poochie to the most country town I've seen in a long time to have his surgery done. He was ready at ten. Needless today he's not very perky or energetic today.

( cut for rambling and details about my dog )

Why can't being home sick be more fun?

I know a lot of people have already posted about it but I figure there are some people on my list that don't share the awesome of other lists. I'm officially plugging sb_mods. SOMEONE HAS ANSWERED MY PRAYERS!

The group of players signing up looks awesome and I'm really excited to get back to Harry Potter the way it once was!

I'm currently apping a squib MacFusty (which I've always wanted to play!) and I'm trying to figure out my next application character because I want TOO MANY! Why are there only three holds?! I wanna play someone I haven't played before and tbh I can't pick between any of the houses.

I've been meaning to write here a lot lately on a variety of topics, but tonight is the night that I am actually doing it on what might seem like an inane topic... I guess a lot of you know that I was fairly burnt out on Harry Potter games a bit ago. I switched sides. I tried a supernatural game, I took a stab at modding an original game, I joined a high school type of game (the latter of which I'm very pleased at though it's pace is a bit slow for me.) Well. I'm back. Or I'd like to be. I've been missing Harry Potter lately (maybe it's the brushes with the rabid Twilight fandom that make me miss the inter=working of the Potter fandom? who knows.)

I'm tired of the kinds of games that are available right now though (from what I can see.) I miss the old school no-gimmick games with serious writers who were active and attentive. I miss players who welcome and encourage in-character drama. I miss the days of simple RPing when the most you needed to tell people in a write up was if it was an adult game, post war, and canon compliant.

Good job to all of the creative games out there that have employed time travel, reincarnation, AUs and whatever else. But I want classic. I want games that will last more than a couple of months with players excited about their characters and the simplicity of the JK Rowlings world.


Gimme Gimme Gimme.

I know I'm not alone in this.

Comment below and I will tell you which of your characters that I've played against are my favorites and why I love them. Then repost this in your own journal.

To be perfectly honest, I think I'm getting worn out on Harry Potter RPGs (no I am not going anywhere but has anyone else notice that it's the same characters (duh), same players, same plots, and same dramas over and over again?) Maybe it's just RP in general but I've been craving a fun, original game for awhile! Not to mention that the fun involved in the AU fanfics really seemed to spark something for me (us). So Ashe and I finally decided to get off of our laurels (hehe, laurels) and do something about it. If figured ya'll are my friends so I wanted to share.

So after habituation wrote me this I felt the need to draw it. I'm not surprised that I spent hours figuring out the right way to do it. I more so am surprised that I am actually posting it here...

Warning: Cross Dressing and Bad Fanart

( Cut for Ouchies )

So I went to the Doctor, hoping to hear that I have allergies and that I just need a benadryl and I can go back to work. No dice. I have pneumonia. At 24. And I don't even feel sick! I mean not sick sick. I'm feverish sometimes and achey and I have a cough but still! PNEUMONIA?!

The plus side to all of this is that the x-ray tech who did my chest x-ray looked and sounded (and kinda acted) like Patrick Wardburton. Made me laugh a little.

Because I'm the slow kid who doesn't check this flist often and therefore am a few days behind on the memeage.


The Hypothetical AU Meme: Take any one of the characters you know I write and pick a friendship/ship (can be from different games because I hate myself) AND give me a type of AU (space opera AU, steampunk AU, superhero AU, Ancient Rome, Regency England etc.). I will then ATTEMPT to write a MINI-fic.

Characters for reference: Verity (O'Shea, Montague, Jacobs, Fitzgerald), Jill Dorny, Jemma Dorny, Jeanette Dorny, Kingsley Shacklebolt, Terence Higgs (Caus/BD), Blaise Zabini, Padma Patil, Saffron "Olivia" Capper, Lorcan d'Eath, Natalie McDonald, Jane Davies, Glynis Greengrass, Molly Weasley, Marietta Edgecombe, and if you know any of my next-geners then feel free to use those too!

I don't mind AUs I'm not familiar with because it's a chance to learn but I don't promise quality here! Gimme some crack to do.

P.S. If anyone makes me write slash-pirates I will bust-a-cap.



Progress
inotherwords: Lorcan/Seamus; Buffy the Vampire Slayer
habituation: Roger/Natalie; Assassins | Myron/Verity; Steampunk | Lorcan/Roger; Mundane College
akaalien: Lorcan/Khloe; Repo 1 | Lorcan/Khloe; Repo 2
eclecticnpink: Monty/Verity; Italian Renaissance | Caiden/Kilea; 1950's (warning for mild twincest) | Charlie/Verity; Kamakura Era, Japan | Connor/Hestia; Old West

I warned you.

Stolen from akaalien

Name me one of my characters, past or present, and I'll tell you the inspiration(s) behind their initial conception, whether they be real-life people or fictional characters or much more ridiculous sources.

I'm home sick today which means MASS MEME TIME. This one was stolen from akaalien

BEFORE looking at the questions, fill in A-C with three of YOUR OWN characters from one game (if you haven't got three characters, then you can do it with one or two characters, too, it's all good). Fill in 1-13 with any other characters from the same game. Then answer the questions.

A. Verity
B. Natalie
C. Lorcan

1. Seamus
2. Mila
3. Myron
4. Marcus
5. Fred
6. Bole
7. Rose
8. Adrian
9. Roger
10. Khloe
11. Terence
12. Millicent
13. Padma

( read more )

The Painless Enneagram Test

I'm not really a fan of personality tests, like Astrology I tend to find them too vague to really impress me. This one on the other hand did just that...

( My Results )

I've given my characters a healthy dose of Veritaserum and now they have to tell the truth. What does this mean for you? Ask my characters questions about anything and everything and they will truthfully answer it.

Stolen from akaalien